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Literally frozen.

2008-10-30T00:39:00.015+01:00

theoretical error fom childhood #1:
When I was little I was convinced that people from different countries laugh differently. I wouldn't even be able to identify it as laughter. I imagined it as spoken words in a different language and I just wasn't able to follow the meaning...

theoretical error from childhood #2:
When I was little I was convinced by the fact that everything out of my reach (all the things I cannot touch, see, smell, taste or hear) is literally frozen. Everyone and everything starts to "play" when the person or the object comes into my reach...it's like watching a movie, you see some protagonists on screen and you know that people behind the camera are waiting for the next scene to show up.

This retro-thoughts came back to me today.
I'm "sensing" my friends who are living in Vienna almost every day or let's say at least, I know that I can meet them easily-easily if time and desire allow it.

But some of my friends are living abroad and thanks to our digitalized world it's supposed to stay in contact effortless ...and although everyone has a mail account, facebook, skype or whatever means of modern communication it is not always that easy... right?

I have this one dearest friend who lives in France (Hello Niki). Our friendship lasts now for more than 6 years. We had years together in Vienna, we had days and weeks together outside of Vienna, we had years on mail and skype. A lot of real-life experiences. Laughing, talking, discussing, listening, sharing, caring, silent moments, disappointments, pure mutual sympathy/Zuneigung - all elements in the evolution of a friendship. I will introduce him to this wonderful concept of "Δορο φιλιασ"...

I had a wonderful evening tonight with a friend from Serbia (Hello Zorana) who was in Vienna for only 2 days. We were talking about old and new, good and bad things, we laughed, we drank, we shared memories about those few months we had together in real life...I introduced her to this wonderful concept of "Δορο φιλιασ"...

I've spent 4 wondeful days with a new friend from Greece (Hello Dimitris). We've got2know each other last september and both of us cannot deny this special connection - this sparkling something where we can now base our friendship on. He introduced me to this wonderful concept of "Δορο φιλιασ" and I will meet him again very soon...

I didn't assume anymore that somebody is going to freeze as soon as (s)he is out of my reach... and I know as well that each person laughs differently and it's understandable all over the world :) (wow, what a knowledge).

and it's a fact that we are friends on distance,
and it's a fact that we have different ways of living,
but it's a fact that we are special to each other.
and I hope that it will stay like this in future.

I love you, my friends...no matter where you are.
:)

About optimism, pessimism and realism...

2008-10-24T00:40:00.006+02:00

...what kind of person are you?
I'm talking about this basic attitude someone has towards something...let's say towards life.

I'm the optimistic one. I'm trying to be realistic for decades now but I have to admit that this pure optimism, my dreamy mindset does not always allow realistic perspectives... especially when it is about dreaming my life... oh, I have this wonderful dream living by the saeside, surrounded by people who share the same attitudes, running my own business together with friends...nevertheless knowing that I have to work hard for my dreams and also in a new country daily routine would get back to me some day. But I imagine daily routine surrounded by the sea as something wonderful...
if I would be pessimistic - I would probably lead my whole life differently...and maybe I wouldn't even follow my dreams...

The attitude one has towards life mirrors itself in all spheres - isn't it like this? When you discuss about a crazy but cool entrepreneurial idea, the pessimistic ones would say: It will not work out because...; the realistic ones would say: We have to make a plan and check the resources...; the optimistic ones would say: I believe in it so let's do it.

I don't want to offend someone for his/her mindset. But I'm happy that I think the way I do think. 100% pure optimism is probably not the best way but paired with an healthy realism, life will be wonderful. Therefore I'm constantly working on it...

my quote of the day: "And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music." (Nietzsche)

About life-chaining and life-changing decisions...

2008-10-05T21:16:00.008+02:00

How much time does it need until you realize the things that make you truly happy?
How much time does it need until you take decisions that are right for you and not for the people around you?
What does it need to put these decisions into reality?

I needed years. Especially the last year was full of thoughts and ponderings, I didn't speak to hardly anyone - now it is time to share...

Right now, everything is so clear for me - quitting my business studies that didn't make me happy at all and doing the things that are my passions (arts, languages), elaborating ideas which could be very successful one day, going further and simply starting to having myself completely. Not acting under pressure anymore - pressure applied by friends, family and society.

I do not deny that it is important to have a degree. But what is important for others is not necessarily important for me. And this awareness is probably one of the most important ones I had in the last few years!

Will I regret anything one day?
When you are true to yourself there shouldn't be any space for regrets to emerge...

Where do I see myself in 2 or 5 years?
I know already where I do not want to be - working for a company 8h or more per day, depending on instructions, confined to vienna in a field of work that is simply not corresponding to my passions. I want to do my own stuff, although it is probably not the easiest way.

Are there 2 different kinds of people?
The ones who look for a cool job, no matter where...others where the environment counts more than the job... I think I'm imputable to the second kind of people.

I just want to live a life which I am creating, because it is too precious to me.

That's it.

p.s. I do have already concrete plans in my mind...

Isles of Passion.

2008-08-10T22:47:00.013+02:00

During an AIESEC conference last february a girl stated in front of some other people: "If I would be a boy I would immediately fall in love with you, Marci." And a boy sitting right next to her (who prefers boys btw) added: "Me too." The people around me were laughing because of this funny little conversation, I laughed as well but I felt really touched by these words. This was probably the most wonderful compliment I was ever paid.

Family, friends and even people who got to know me recently tell me that I have a "beaming" smile.

The reason that I found out for myself is quite simple: I'm passionate about living. And with passion I mean 100% pure love for every sphere in life I'm committing myself to - my inner self, people, hobbies, responsibilities.

Omi, Opi, Mama, (the core of) my friends, painting, drawing, reading, thinking, writing, art, music, Italy and last but not least AIESEC

are my ISLES OF PASSION.

All of those are shaping my reality, are shaping me as person, make me happy and make it worth living.